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| oh my dear xangxang how i have missed you..
it's been a long time. a long, long, time since i've felt tired cos of lying in bed for way too long (try 5pm-11pm)
and it feels good.
exams went relatively well.
i fully recommend doing 3 papers because it is so worth it. your GPA will explain its worth - i cannot emphasize further. JUST DO IT. K ? K!? K? OK :)
there have been a lot of things on my mind lately.
a lot of new doors opening & shutting constantly.
i keep asking myself if this is the right path i'm treading.
there are so many things i feel like i'm doing wrong, but it hurts to let go of them & it's difficult all. the. time.
i tell myself to take one step at a time and not worry about what's going to happen next or what has happened - but i can't seem to see the bigger picture.
God has his odd little ways to remind me of what's right & it puts me back on track -but i don't know. sometimes i just want to see things from afar, look a little into the future so i can brace myself for what's to come.
life is so uncertain.
so exciting- yet the excitement turns to nervousness.
but of course there must always be balance.
i think this-nothing-to-do-in-holidays is turning me into sittingwishing again.
having said that, i must reconfirm.
i am happy : ) always.
i love hubert cheng the poo that makes me happy. i think that in itself says a lot (please refer to blog entries dating up to 12 months ago if you are unsure)
(shut up . pokemon is cool ok)
time for some pokemonopoly, wii, beers & 25a kimberly rd.
summerrrr please come nowwww kthxbye : )
p.s. my new love:
p.p.s fine this is what i look like now just in case anyone was wondering if i am actually dead - i am not. and yes i have put on weight i know i have to look at myself everyday so shush. wiifit is my new friend for the next 12 weeks....
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i was feeling crap for the days leading to my birthday, i should have been excited & optimistic but instead the thought of a particular someone made me cringe and all i could think of was how wasted my 19th year of life was because of them.
"It's easy to blame others for your problems and wait till they fix them. But then you never get to rise to the occasion… "
it always seems so easy when the problem isn't on your shoulders and you're not the one having to carry it every single day- bearing the repercussions of a previous broken relationship. saying that i was over it didn't really mean it was truly over. it was still lingering at the back of my mind, crippling me every time i wanted & needed to feel like i had put the past behind me and had moved on to a brighter future.
in short, i felt a lot of regret.
a whole lot of it.
and that lead to sadness & anger which should not be around. ever.
not now. not when almost everything is going right for me.
i didn't know where to turn.
& i didn't get my answer til this morning.
"We are hard pressed… but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed" (2 Corinthians 4:8-9).
all at once, all my feelings felt stupid & insignificant - i still don't know if i can go so far as to say that i don't care that my final year of teen-hood was pretty much wrecked by an overwhelmingly bad relationship, but i guess time still hasn't taken its toll yet.
but the moral of the story is.
when all seems bleak, God is what keeps me going.
you?
p.s.
thank you huby for putting up with my crap at ungodly hours on tuesday morning. 
& for all the showers of love from friends & family, thank you for making my 20th not so crap since 20 isn't really an awesome age to be turning *cringe i think i've hit a milestone that i don't want to hit. | | |
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fb is working now yay ! screw you people that stole my fruits 
anyWHO!
ew gross.
i'm trying to study and it's not working because i don't really care about mathematics... though i wish i did. no i don't.
meh.
p.s. dv8 was lameskis & it'll be the last time i'm attending an event like that for $30. $25 on discount actually. same difference -___-
p.p.s. on a lighter note, it is my birthday soon : ) excite ?
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| what is the point in life when facebook doesn't work ?
now EVERYONE'S going to steal my fruits on happy farm . i am thoroughly upset.
URGHHHHHHH
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